More thoughts on writing, COVID-19 pandemic

Through some discussion with others and my own observations and feelings, I think I figured out why I’m in such a slump with writing. On top of getting very much out of my habit of writing frequently and limiting how often I drove due to winter weather earlier this year, the stay at home order for WI limited me further.

Ever since the stay-at-home order was first introduced in late March, obviously a lot of non-essential businesses closed and essential businesses limited themselves to delivery/pick up only (restaurants) or limited how many patrons are inside their business at any given time (Walmart, grocery stores, hardware stores, some gyms). Needless to say, the coffee shops in Madison either limited themselves to delivery/pick up orders only, or closed outright until they’re allowed to reopen again. This includes the on I frequent to chill and do some writing while not being cooped up in the house. As of writing this, this cafe in particular is limiting pick up orders only, for the time being.

By now, the stay-at-home order in WI falls to the county level; some will keep it on, others have outright rejected the order, and some are unsure. My county will keep the order on until May 26, unless stated otherwise.

While most state and city parks in WI have reopened, some public areas will remain closed, regardless of what county they’re in. Even some businesses are still taking precautions to protect their customers and employees. So, despite the stay-at-home order being rejected on the state level, I’m still limited with where I can and can’t go. Best I can do right now is visit one of the city parks, keep my distance, and hope I don’t have to use a tree when I’m out in nature. There’s no coffee shops or libraries open where I’m able to just sit down and write, I can only hike around city parks and that’s all, and forget about going to the gym during a pandemic.

So who knows how long I’ll be able to get out of the house and write or relax elsewhere? I still have my job that I actually have to go to, because I’m an essential employee. But that’s the only time I’m ever out of the house since the order, aside from a few grocery trips, a car repair, and very few gas station stops.

I, like many others, was so ready to change myself for the better, keep that fire burning, grow, hone, and press on through anything that would hinder me.

No one was expecting what we’re dealing with now.

Fuck COVID-19!

Regarding what I said on my Twitter

Hey guys~

A few weeks ago, I posted a few tweets that were more a vent than anything. Usually, when I do this, the feelings I have when venting is more in-the-moment and nothing long-term; they tend to go away within the next few days and I’m fine. But this…this is different: I still feel the same way I felt when I posted those tweets. Even just reading them again has been triggering.

I decided I’d go more in-depth on what I said; I don’t know if this will be therapeutic in anyway or not, but we’ll see. All of these are copy-pasted from my writing account Twitter verbatim and were all posted Apr 13. I didn’t include them as links because I may end up deleting them in the future; again, we’ll see. Continue reading

Commissions Closed & Life Status

Hey guys~

Due to IRL happenings and not making very much progress on my current commissions, I’ve decided to close commissions. I don’t know when or if I’ll open up for them again.

I thought with being in a better spot in my life I’d be able to spend more time and effort on both commissions and writing in general; however, as time went on, things slowly became chaotic on my end. My current job went from being something I can just go to and make some decent money without really needing to stress out about it, to making me dread each day and wondering how much of a shitshow it’ll be. It’s also left me stressed out and drained to the point where I didn’t want to do much of anything productive and barely taking care of myself; knowing I still have six commissions to work on doesn’t help either.

However, things are slowly getting better, I think; the biggest thing is not letting my job get to me too much. Thing is, I want to keep this job for much longer than a year if I can, as well as stay where I’m currently living, both of which have become a bit difficult lately.

I’ve never had much of an opportunity to establish myself since living on my own prior.

I will continue to work on what is currently in my queue as best as I can. After that, I may focus on personal writing for a little while or as I work on commissions; my characters miss me and I miss them.

In the past, I’ve taken commissions as a means to make a little extra cash on the side; while this is still true, I don’t feel as desperate for the money anymore. And while I do treat commissions in a business-like manner, I want these to be a fun experience for both me and the client; they also help me grow as a writer and explore various themes and topics I wouldn’t write about otherwise.

But…I also need to take care of myself first.

With that said, for those of you who’ve already submitted a form and haven’t gotten your story yet, I will get in touch with you to determine if you still want me to do your commission or not. For those who’ve been wanting to commission me, I do apologize sincerely.



Hey guys~

Just a quick announcement regarding commissions that I forgot to mention on my last journal about these: I’m thinking of closing the form sometime this weekend, most likely Saturday 5/25 (unsure of time right now, though most likely between 9am and 11am CST).

I’ve already gotten a few entries and a few more interested in getting a commission from me. I’ll be honest, I was not expecting to get more than one or two this quickly, and what I’ve seen so far are all good ideas.

Depending on what happens between now and Saturday, I may leave the form open but only work on three stories at a time. I may, however, cap the number of entries I’ll do to a total of 9 or 12; again, this depends on how many people show interest during the rest of this week.

So, if you’re still interested in getting a commission from me but haven’t filled out the form yet, please see this post here >>>


Commissions Open

Hey guys~

Gonna open up for story commissions (long time, I know). Like always, please read my guidelines first and fill out the Google form before contacting me. Doing so gives me a better idea what you want right away, even if you’re not 100% sure what you want; we can always clear things up later on.

Guidelines –
Form –

There are a few changes I’m making to commissions, however, so please take note of these:

  • prices have increased based on a rate of $0.0075USD per word; this may not sound like much, but it’s significant once you view/calculate prices for each 1K word teir
  • you will be sent a link instead of an invoice when payment is due; this is to make things easier for both of us, hopefully, and I’ve already had a couple people flat-out send me the money before I could send them an invoice
  • if you’re a ko-fi donor, I apologize, but I will not be doing donor discounts on commissions anymore; it’s become a little too difficult for me to keep track of and was more of an incentive for people to donate towards that and not as a tipping service

I will be working on three stories at a time; as commissions complete, that entry will be removed from the total. Once I hit 9 form entries total, it will be closed. However, these are not necessarily first come, first serve; I will need to look at what you want first and see if I’ll be willing to write it or not. (This is where reading the guidelines and form comes into play).

I will show commission progress on my Trello, which can be found here >>>

Thank you to everyone who’s commissioned me in the past and for everyone who enjoys my writing! This has always been a fun, interesting experience for me, despite the stresses it may bring 🙂


Some things…

Hey guys…It’s been a while…

First of all, you may have noticed I recently uploaded a story commission; this means I’m now finished with what commissions I had left in queue. However, I don’t think I’ll open up for commissions again anytime soon, for a few reasons:

– I want to start writing stories for myself and work on older ones that have been on the backburner for too long.
– I need to work on my personal life as much as I can to where I can feel fully content with my current situation. It’s much better than where I was at a year ago, but there is some areas that need improvement.
– I want to start reading more; this can range from stories I find online or others share with me, or from the number of books I own that have been sitting on my shelf as decoration.
– I may start writing stories for free/PWYW via ko-fi, mainly in terms of a YCH, regardless if others’ character(s) play a major or minor role in the story. I may keep this limited to friends, though, and I’m not considering these as requests.
– I did have an actual YCH story idea in mind, but I may just scrap it or rework it and write it as a personal story. Might have this one include other people’s characters, if they are willing to allow me to use them.
– I might just close requests and trades/collabs for now; again, I want to write for myself.

A lot of this I should have done when I first joined the fandom, rather than take on commissions as soon as I had an identity established. But, I guess better late than never, eh?

Will I get published, who knows? Will I decide to self-pub later down the line? Maybe. But the first step I need to do is write, and write, and write.

As a side note: I no longer RP. Please don’t ask or I will ignore you. I no longer have the desire to do so, nor do I have the time anyway anymore.


Commissions and life things

Hey guys~

I’m currently in the process of figuring out this whole moving thing, because I need to secure a place and be out of my current apartment by the end of August (which is when my lease is up). I also still have to sort through stuff, pack, figure out transport, and make sure my current apartment is clean for the next tenants (and so I don’t get charged from my security deposit). I’ve also had a lot on my mind with where I want to go to start my own life and establish some sort of permanence in my life for once. That’s the gist it, anyway.

With that said, I will more than likely hold off on commission work for a while; I’m currently working on one at the moment, but once I finish up that one, I’m going to need to focus on this moving thing for quite some time. There are numerous personal projects I’ve been meaning to work on as well, but even with those, I just don’t know if I’ll have enough time right now.

For anyone who’s already filled out the form, please send me a note, message via one of my IM methods, or an email if you wish to stay on the wait list or would like to be removed; situations like this is the reason why I don’t take payment up front well before I start on a commission.

I’ll probably still keep them open, but keep in mind: you will be waiting a while.

I sincerely apologize for all of this; my life’s been a mess lately and I need to focus on what’s important.


Slight changes to Guidelines

Hey guys~

Come next round of commissions, I’ve tweaked my TOS/Guidelines somewhat and will be taking commissions a little differently (some of this will also apply to trades and requests).

Changes to all:
– Maximum word count I’m willing to write has increased to 10,000. After writing a few of my own stories that are around this length or higher, I’m more comfortable taking commissions of this length.
– “Watersports” has been removed from the Won’t Write list. Let’s just say…it’s a fetish I recently got into and want to explore myself…don’t judge me >.>

Changes to Commissions:
– There will be a form you must fill out if you wish to commission me! I will link that on my profile page as well as the very bottom of my guidelines page.
– Now that I will be doing this, I’m thinking of waiting until all slots are filled up before starting on commissions. However, I understand they may take a while to fill, so I might still do first-come-first-serve (after approving your commission request, of course).

Also, each time you donate to my ko-fi, you automatically get a one-time discount on a commission based on how much you donated!

Anyway, I think that’s about it for now. I do hope to get started on my last commission for this round, plus I’m working on a story featuring my horse and my cheetah characters; it will also be an expansion of my story “Letter to the Unknown.” I don’t know if I’ll just post that on here when I finish or try to get it published, but we’ll see!


Posting commission slots

Hey guys~

Since I’m starting to get a bit of a backlog of commissions now, along with wanting to get into a few upcoming furry anthologies, I’m gonna have to start determining slots now.

In the past, I’ve done three slots and that seemed to do well. However, I’m thinking of bumping that up to four slots. Currently, three slots are taken up, so there’s one more left for whoever ends up getting it.

I strive to provide timely updates as best as I can, and these will be updated as such once I get a chance to post who already got what slot on here somewhere. I’ll see if I can create a post I can pin to the top of my blog on here, or I may create a separate page for slots; I’m not sure yet.

I’ll admit, progress has slowed down for me lately but I’m trying to pick up the pace again. I’ve been trying to stay positive about life things as much as I can because I know how detrimental it can be to my work ethic. Also, with Thanksgiving here in the States, winter coming up where I live, the Holidays, and New Years coming up, I don’t doubt I’ll be a tad busier than usual with family things and life things that may pop up. Best thing I can do is take things one day at a time.