Through some discussion with others and my own observations and feelings, I think I figured out why I’m in such a slump with writing. On top of getting very much out of my habit of writing frequently and limiting how often I drove due to winter weather earlier this year, the stay at home order for WI limited me further.
Ever since the stay-at-home order was first introduced in late March, obviously a lot of non-essential businesses closed and essential businesses limited themselves to delivery/pick up only (restaurants) or limited how many patrons are inside their business at any given time (Walmart, grocery stores, hardware stores, some gyms). Needless to say, the coffee shops in Madison either limited themselves to delivery/pick up orders only, or closed outright until they’re allowed to reopen again. This includes the on I frequent to chill and do some writing while not being cooped up in the house. As of writing this, this cafe in particular is limiting pick up orders only, for the time being.
By now, the stay-at-home order in WI falls to the county level; some will keep it on, others have outright rejected the order, and some are unsure. My county will keep the order on until May 26, unless stated otherwise.
While most state and city parks in WI have reopened, some public areas will remain closed, regardless of what county they’re in. Even some businesses are still taking precautions to protect their customers and employees. So, despite the stay-at-home order being rejected on the state level, I’m still limited with where I can and can’t go. Best I can do right now is visit one of the city parks, keep my distance, and hope I don’t have to use a tree when I’m out in nature. There’s no coffee shops or libraries open where I’m able to just sit down and write, I can only hike around city parks and that’s all, and forget about going to the gym during a pandemic.
So who knows how long I’ll be able to get out of the house and write or relax elsewhere? I still have my job that I actually have to go to, because I’m an essential employee. But that’s the only time I’m ever out of the house since the order, aside from a few grocery trips, a car repair, and very few gas station stops.
I, like many others, was so ready to change myself for the better, keep that fire burning, grow, hone, and press on through anything that would hinder me.
No one was expecting what we’re dealing with now.